on Sep 13, 2014 @ 10:34 pm|
I had my first and ONLY child when I was 18 and I feel like I haven't lived my life yet. I haven't yet experienced what people my own age has experienced and I am bitter and frustrated. Older people always tell me oh your still young you have your whole life ahead of you and blah blah but I feel like I'm running out of time. Just to give you a little background info my daughters father is hardly in the picture so I stepped up to the plate and became the mother and father to my child. I missed my prom, I never partied hell I never been to a bar or night club ever in my life. I have no social life because all my friends are either married or into their careers. I took up a trade in the nursing field and regretted ever since so now I am currently in my last semester of college and soon I will have my dream job. Most people my age are married or settled down but marriage and a husband scares me I don't want to be tied down I want to start my career and travel the world I don't want to have to answer to anyone I want to be young and free all my life I have be closed in its time I come out of my shell and live a little I'm so anxious to get started with my new life some question is am I wrong for not wanting a husband and to be tied down to a commitment I have the whole world I need to explore it's time I get my passport and live my life am making the right decision to live carefree in my 30's?
|hugs on Sep 14, 2014 @ 08:38 am|
I have an idea how you feel but the grass is not always greener on the other side. I am not very happy that my life is not where I dreamed it would be either.
You took control of your life and you are pushing forward to achieve your dreams. That is great! It's not wrong to not want to be married, but if the right partner shows up now they may be that one that wants to experience life too. You can have adventures together.
I have a friend that enjoys life to the fullest every day. She has two beautiful kids and found a great man that took her little family in. I learn more of life from her!
Find what you want in life, and make it yours. And enjoy your little one, for kids leave home TOO QUICKLY!!