on Oct 01, 2011 @ 01:43 pm|
To him :
I hope you never love someone as much as I loved you. I hope this because I hope you never see that love walk away. I hope you never believe with all of your being that someone is "the one" , finally. I hope if you find that love you don't feel the ache of their lies, hear broken promises, or have them blame you for what they have done. I hope it never feels like home, and then is taken away and given to a stranger.
Most of all I hope you never Love someone enough to let them go, because they didn't love you enough to stay.
As much as I thought I had hurt in my past, this hurts more.
That when I didn't think it could get any worse ....it did.
That I may never make love, or love at all the way I did.
That I still wake up and reach for you....
That nothing feels like home.
In a room full of people, I'm still alone.
That through all of this...I know it has to get better.
That life isn't fair, and even though I didn't deserve this pain, i have it.
That somehow, I will be okay.
-Love your "wifey"
|... on Oct 03, 2011 @ 11:49 am|
I know I speak for us all when we say how sorry we are you're hurting so much :( It's probably very helpful for you to write this stuff down, so that is a good step toward healing.
Your final line "that somehow, I will be okay" needs to be your mantra - because it's true. It will ease eventually. Trust that your path still lies before you and you will look back on these days as what you have already identified them: a valuable lesson.
I read a lot of despair in your words and it makes me sad. Try to see the value in all of this, and try to focus on how you'll come out of this stronger and wiser for it. Don't allow yourself to become bitter, but know that because you are an amazing person who deserves happiness, it will come to you :)
Ali de Bold
|It will get better! on Oct 03, 2011 @ 12:44 pm|
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I know first hand how horrible that feels, but things will get better and you won't always feel this way. Mamaluv gave you some good advice. Big hugs!
|justme11 on Oct 04, 2011 @ 10:47 am|
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|Good for you! on Oct 04, 2011 @ 11:39 am|
It's a really great idea to write down everything you can't say to him.
I have always found talking about a situation with someone else or even just writing down all the thoughts in my head so clarifying. You always feel better and see things more objectively when you can see things for what they are.
I really think that this is a great, healthy step to getting better and getting over the relationship!
|It does help on Oct 13, 2011 @ 10:32 pm|
I still have good days and bad days, good moments and bad moments. My heart is still very broken and I fight hard not to think about him, he and I together, and what he is probably doing now. Rough time would be an understatement but I am doing my best. Trying to focus on family, my degree, friends , and the things that matter in life. I know things will turn around eventually, just a tough ride for now. Still wish he would at least show regret for what he did or something but I can't wait for that. I do deserve good things and didn't deserve the cruelty of him. You all have no idea how much your words mean to me. I'd never wish this pain on anyone but it is comforting to know others have felt this way. I feel pathetic that I still ache for him, miss him, and cry over it all but I really did love him so I just have to know it won't be easy.
I am glad this website is here as an outlet and a way to hear from all you wonderful women and your kind words.
I try to remember this will pass, but sometimes the pain is overwhelming. The worlds worst rollercoaster! :)
Hope you all are having a beautiful day/ night.